Anonymous

Sometimes I wish I could be more vocal, then again I don't really think that'd be me.. a small few might know very well that I can voice those thoughts in my head, but for the rest of them.. I probably could never be that person. So I guess this is trying to be different or breaking free in my own small steps, saying things I want to say.. just because

1. I don't think you realize how happy you make me feel. From our random conversations to our contagious laughter, you never seem to bore me.. ever.
2. I just realized that you like to live your life in isolationism and in secrecy, but you've never really failed to let me in. I know we've had our ups and down, or rather un-explanatory circumstances when we both just do our own things, but we never really lose each other along the way.
3. Sometimes it amazes me how it all came to be, but when I really think about it.. I wouldn't have it any other way. You get me. You understand me. You listen. We talk. It just works. And even though sometimes people may not get it, we do.. and that's really all that matters.
   
4. If you fall, I'll pick you up.
   
5. Sometimes I wish I could go and turn back the hands of time, so that maybe we didn't have to go our separate ways and that maybe all the 'what ifs' could come to an end in my mind, and maybe even yours.
   
6. If you only knew how much I've wanted to say to you over these past 6 months or so, maybe things would be different.. not sure if things would be better or get worse, but sometimes I think you should know. It's weird because when I try to find the words and think the timing is right, everything just fails. I ignore my thoughts and feelings because I just can't open my mouth and say it.
7. I just wish you could understand. I'd like to see it from your perspective, but only if you'll hear mine. It puzzles me how you can make me laugh so much and how I can gain your trust, but I just wish you were straight up with me.. asking me the questions instead of someone else. Because clearly there's an issue here and I'm somewhat getting tired of it.
8. You're an individual, a character, a thinker, a listener, an adviser and a friend. But straight up.. you're real.
   
9. We're going our separate ways, drifting a part as we speak. But I don't think any one of us is willing to change our direction.
10. I miss you, I really do.