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I really don't know what it is but I haven't been able to get into the "Christmas Spirit" of things. Our house is fully decorated, even the occasional Christmas music on the stereo and I work in retail with Christmas music playing non-stop. But, I just don't feel whatever I'm suppose to feel yet. And Christmas is three days a way! It doesn't exactly help that I'm not done my Christmas shopping yet, but working in a mall makes you become of sick of them really quickly. And I don't know if it's just me, but I can't seem to find anything that people will actually like.. for me, presents are about the reactions when the person on receiving end opens it up. Anyone can get someone a generic gift, but it's about thinking outside the box, and lately I haven't been able to do that. Nothing really seems to stand out, making it extremely difficult for me to finish my shopping. And another thing, it's so much easier to get things for people that you're really close with because you know their taste, their style and likes, as opposed to others who you're just guessing they'll like it.
Another thing I've noticed over winter break is that as you get older, the snow just doesn't have the same affect on you anymore. I remember being younger and just praying for the snow to come down so school would close. Everyone lived for snow days and hearing your school on the radio, saying it was closed was priceless.. seriously. But now, snow just becomes a hassle. My parentals won't let me drive in the snow, making it extremely difficult to hangout with people that I was too busy to hangout with during the semester. Snow makes it so much more difficult to get around and causes you to just stay indoors. I would play outside in the snow, but it's not like I have anyone to play in the snow with either. And another thing, there's no snow days at work, you have to show up regardless of the weather conditions. Growing up.. sigh.
Adding to the whole how I can't seem to find the Christmas Spirit, ever since I got this awesome mix tape of 90's hip hop/r&b music from ria -- thank you soo much!! It's been on constant repeat throughout the day. I'd rather listen to it than Christmas music, which is kinda sad because you can only listen to Christmas music once a year. But I don't know, it just doesn't make me feel as happy as it used to. And it also doesn't help that one of the songs on the cd is entitled "Summertime in the LBC", which straight up a summer jam. I love the song soo much, but when I look out the window, there's like a foot of snow outside.. am I crazy that a part of me kinda sorta wishes it was summer again?